My Awakening to the Sacred Feminine in the Braes of Balquidder 1996

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Getting the Message to come and meet RainbowHawk and WindEagle
In 1996, I attended a business workshop that had life-changing consequences for me in awakening to the Sacred Feminine. I did not know it at the time; in fact, I left the workshop rather bemused by the circular wheels that were used to illustrate the information being offered. When I spoke to the presenter at the end of the day, I remember saying that I did not quite “get it”, and yet I felt that I had just encountered something rather special.

He smiled enigmatically at me and told me he had felt much the same during his first encounter with this way of thinking. There was a conspiratorial air to his reply.  The topic the workshop covered was about leading change through a blend of ancient “Earth Wisdom” and leading-edge Management Science. As I was leaving, he handed me a small flyer, called Maps of Balance, and said that his Earth Wisdom Teachers were coming to Scotland from California and that I might like to attend one of their “ceremonies”.

Maps of Balance from around the world from left to right, top to bottom:
Mayan Hunab Ku, Sumerian Cross, Islamic Star, Buddhist Lotus,
Yin Yang I Ching, Nordic Sun Wheel, Celtic Cross & Hindu Yantra
David and I love indigenous cultures and we had a chat about the brochure and thought it was interesting. We were about to get married, however, and decided we had enough on our plate and so would not attend. But, a few days later, David came home from a seminar and he had been handed the same flyer about these circular Maps of Balance. At supper that night we mused over whether we should attend, as it felt like a message was coming to us. We agreed I would look into what was involved.

I remember speaking to Flowering Rose who told me about the Ehama Institute holding, what she called, a body of ancient Earth Wisdom called The Origin Teachings of the Delicate Lodge.  The Teachers were called RainbowHawk and WindEagle and she was sure I would really enjoy the weekend ceremony.  She told me there would be an evening gathering at the Quaker Meeting House in Edinburgh where I could meet the Teachers and learn more about their work so we could decide if the weekend “ceremony” was for us.

Attending my first ever ‘Cornplanting’
So I booked my place and got there rather frazzled after a busy day at work. On arrival, I was invited to find a seat, I looked around the room and there must have been about a hundred people there and we were at the full capacity.  There was a fun energy in the room and the Ehama team did seem quite calm faced with a room filled to overflowing. Then, I saw WindEagle for the first time.

She was wearing a full-length turquoise dress that seemed to consist of a number of layers. She was carrying a large feather and a bowl of sage and was gently wafting the smoke as she walked around the room.  I was immediately taken with the sense of stillness that she exuded and the way she was taking in the room, and smiling at people, without making fully direct eye contact.  Something within me felt very drawn to her, and I remember thinking this was how I would wish to be more often in my busy life of work and family.

Once everybody was introduced, Rainbow Hawk stood up and moved to the centre of the room.  He had an incredible presence, he was very commanding: yet had a smile that softened his face. He spoke about the challenges of living in the modern era and how, as humans, we are often disconnected from conscious connection with the Earth.  WindEagle then stood up and joined him in the middle of the room where she talked about this evening being a ‘Cornplanting’ which was a metaphor for planting seeds in the consciousness of people who may be called to the Ehama training programmes.  Once again, I was intrigued. There was a fluency and beauty to this presentation that I had never experienced before. The evening was completed by an invitation to come to what they called a ‘ceremony’ in a stone circle near Balquidder in the land of Rob Roy.

The Call of the Land of Rob Roy

I went home that night and said to David that I thought we should go the ceremony. The only fly in the ointment was camping we were both somewhat challenged by the prospect of camping in the wilds of Scotland.  I had only camped once before when I was about twelve and I was not a big fan.  However, the prospect of the being in a Stone Circle clinched it for us.  We were going!  The next weekend we went out bought a tent, mats and two sleeping bags.  We were all set and, looking back, it feels like at some deep level we were already on the journey with the Teachers and this ancient wisdom called The Origin Teachings of the Delicate  Lodge.  I can remember thinking a lot about attending the weekend over the next few weeks. Would I be too much out of my comfort zone?  What if I didn’t like it? I could be rather sniffy if I felt constrained or told what to do.  Never the less, we were going.

The ceremony was due to start at 5 pm on a Friday. So we decided to make a weekend of it and left at lunchtime on a warm and beautiful sunny June day.  We traveled a seemingly long way down a dirt track to the site and when we arrived the location was quite breath-taking.  A stone circle on the brow of a hill looked down onto two side-by-side Scottish lochs. In the distance over the rolling landscape, we could see the Scottish mountains. There was much bustling activity around the camp and we were greeted warmly and guided to where we were to put up our tent. I arrived with my pull-along suitcase and both it and I were ill-equipped for the bumpy grassland.  Little did I know that my norms in the physical, emotional, intellectual and spiritual realms were about to be shaken and stirred and I would be embarking on an adventure that continues to this day.

The Ceremony that Awakened my Sacred Feminine
I will share more of this ceremony in another contribution, what I wish to focus on here is my burgeoning realisation of the Sacred Feminine and, of course, the Sacred Masculine too.   Seeing how WindEagle and RainbowHawk were manifesting at the cornplanting evening was the beginning of this revealing.  I felt that she was an exemplar of the kind of woman I wanted to be.  I sensed a balance of power in her that I felt very drawn to.  I had a busy life being a parent of my two lovely daughters, in a loving intimate partnership with David, and also running my own business.   Life felt very hectic and I had this undertow of anxiety that I could never quite resolve.

The ceremonial aspects of the weekend touched me profoundly – the Pow-Wow drumming resonated deep within me in such a surprising way. The sound enters your chest and simple energised you.  A couple of years later WindLance supported me to become a drum point at SunDance which was an important Medicine claiming for me. 

The second aspect of this awakening was my own experience of our time in ceremony. On Friday evening we were introduced to a practice called Stringing the Beads where each person spoke whilst holding a Talking Stick. Everyone else listened as you spoke. When it was my turn to speak, I felt this rise of emotion within me and to my surprise, I could hardly talk for the tightness in my throat. This rising of emotion was a pattern for me throughout the weekend. On Saturday night I remember going to bed in my tent and feeling very angry, I could not really explain the anger to David but it was truly visceral. I now understand that some part of me knew it was going to have to change and it was fighting for survival. If I could have gone home at that point, I would have.

After breakfast on Sunday morning, the women were invited to gather in the Stone Circle and the men went down to the water. Once the women were settled in the circle, WindEagle looked at each of us in turn and began to speak. She said that she and RainbowHawk saw that the women here were hurting and that time to be together as women was needed.  She spoke of how, in this Earth Wisdom way, the metaphor for the relationship of Sacred Feminine and Sacred Masculine was that the women hold the centre, at the fire and the men hold the perimeter.

She told us of the power of the Sacred Feminine and how the awakening and remembering of this in each of us was a profound pathway to healing and balance. I remember that I experienced what I can only describe as a bolt of energy shooting up through my spine and something deep within me shifted that has not since gone away. I saw that I was not conscious of this part of me and that I needed to make some shifts in how I operated in the world. There was a lot of emotion expressed at the end of our time together and lots and lots of hugging.

One of the things I remember about that morning was the song we sang and how, as we left the Stone Circle, we somehow all recognised that a song was needed. We came out of the Stone circle and someone suggested a song called ‘The Women and The Wisdom’ and she taught it to us.  Here is what I remember of the song: (click the play icon below to hear the song)


We are sisters on a journey dancing in the sun
We are sisters on a journey singing now as one
Remembering the Ancient Ones
The Women and the Wisdom
The Women and the Wisdom

We all linked arms and started to sing as we marched down the hill. The men heard us and turned around to watch us coming down the hill and somehow they just knew what to do. They moved into two lines to welcome us and they were smiling and cheering us as we moved through the lines.  I remember looking at RainbowHawk and he had tears in his eyes.

We were welcomed
We were beautiful
We were honoured
We were in our full power as Sacred Feminine beings

One of the things I did when I got home was to go through my clothes and take out those with big shoulders and big bows. I realised that I did not need to be that “big” anymore and that these clothes were part of my defense strategy. People also commented that I was a bit softer and less prickly. I have tears in my eyes as I remember that this was a truly transformational time for me, and for all of us.

I came home to something deep within that has never left me and is about who I am as a woman. I offer a deep bow of gratitude to my Teachers, RainbowHawk and WindEagle, for seeing what was needed and for guiding us to an understanding that was so life-affirming and transformational.

Two weeks later, David and I returned to the second ceremony the Ehama team where holding and a blessing for our forthcoming marriage was woven into the ceremony. Not only did we celebrate our marriage but also the marriage of the Sacred Feminine and Sacred Masculine in all of us.  We all agreed that we were in a timeless time during that weekend and David and I could not have been more married.  The civil ceremony was the icing on our Earth Wisdom wedding cake that we remember with such fondness.

And so began my life-long love affair with the Teachings of the Delicate Lodge.  In dedication to my Teachers, I have recorded the song The Wild Mountain Thyme which we sang during our time in ceremony in Scotland. It reminded them of their Celtic heritage and I know they both loved it dearly.

(click the play icon below to hear the song)

Ann StarSong is the Chair of Center for Timeless Earth Wisdom which exists to foster and nourish the reconnection of people with the Wisdom of the Mother Earth by sharing, applying and evolving the Origin Teachings of the Delicate Lodge.

She and FireHawk are co-editors of this BeaconFires journal which is a manifestation of their long-held Sacred Dream to co-create a dedicated Medicine community where people who love The Teachings can share and learn from each other in ways that respond to the challenges of 21st Century living. We welcome contact from any of our Medicine Family who are interested in bringing us into a closer and deeper relationship with one another.

She is passionate about being a grandparent and in supporting members of her “baby boomer” generation to actively bring forward their wisdom in service of their families and their wider communities. Please see our Active Wisdom Programme that is in development by clicking here.

Ann StarSong and Prairie Dancer host an annual cycle of Seasonal Ceremonies – more information can be found on our website. 

  1. Dear StarSong,

    As I write this I bask in the sound of your lovely voice singing the soul touching song, “The Wild Mountain Thyme.” Having come to the medicine fairly recently in 2012, I love hearing the stories and seeing the photos of your experiences and first impressions of WindEagle and RainbowHawk. You bring new meaning and understanding of the power we have when we walk in the medicine and allow it emanate through us to others. It was also a joy to read the comments of people I have come to love through ceremony over the years. SpyRock brought a smile to my heart as I glance up and take in the art of Lightning Dove. Thank you for your words, both written and sung and the energy they impart. How grateful I am to be walking with you in the Active Wisdom series with you and FireHawk. May we continue this journey together of walking in wholeness and beauty. I love you.

    • Dear Julia BuffaloWoman

      Thank you for you beautiful words – I have just re-read this article and the tears of remembrance are with me once again. I so appreciate you touching in here and that there is resonance for you in my story.

      A delight to journey with you as we each flower into our Elderhood. So much more to be opened up and experienced.

      Onwards ever onwards 🙂

      So much love to you

  2. Dear StarSong,
    I loved reading of your journey with the teachings and being reminded of those early days when we first met in a stone circle on land that was once held by the legendary Rob Roy. It became a ceremony that felt like it had emerged out of the mists of time into the realms of timelessness. The gifts that you and Prairie Dancer have given to the teachings (and that you continue to give) have blessed and nurtured us all. There are so many beautiful stories of the journey and impact of the teachings in the lives of many. It feels especially important to be sharing those stories together at this evolutionary moment in time around the virtual fire that is Beacon Fires. Thank you for the beauty and power of your story.

  3. Dear StarSong,

    You have pulled us all back to those magical times of the beginning – years before my time. It was lovely to see the photos of those young yearning bodies. And still the yearning continues – maybe now half-fed, maybe now fully satisfied. But even a full embodied connection only fuels the yearning evermore. Perhaps never in the long-story of humankind has a yearning been also so sweet.
    Good Medicine Dear Elder,

  4. Dearest StarSong.

    I’m very moved to read the story of your early times with WindEagle and RainbowHawk and hear your beautiful, powerful Sacred Star Songs! Letting them wash over me brought me home to my own memories and the heart of this family’s medicine journey.

    I feel honoured to have shared so many beautiful parts of the journey with you and PD over the years and to continue to weave our sisterhood as the journey continues.

    Such a blessing to witness you flourishing in you Elderhood wisdom. Thank you fir following you calling and for creating this beautiful connecting space with FireHawk

    • My Dearest Sister

      Yes! what a Medicine Journey we have shared over the years and I look forward to more and more:)

      It has been such a joy to bring the beacon light to what each woman is each holding and birthing for the good of All Life. Such an array of power and beauty and love and intention and……

      We are ‘Women on a Journey Dancing in the Sun’ and to honour the Sacred Feminine and the dance with the Sacred Masculine has been so enriching for FireHawk and I.

      Many, many blessings to you

      Ann StarSong

  5. Dearest Ann StarSong,
    Your words fly like beams of light into the past… into the circle of stones at that ancient wheel and the light bounces back to now… making a rainbow journey of remembering.
    Thank you dear StarSong for your beauty, your amazing singing and your wonderful remembrance. We have journeyed together for so long… and I cherish all the times and places and depth of wisdom we have shared.
    In deep appreciation!

    • Dearest WindEagle

      Thank you:)

      Loving you from such a warm place in my heart and honouring your Sacred Twin in my remembering.

      So many happy memories, so many powerful teachings and experiences. Just yesterday I was speaking to my understanding of what it is to be held by Mother Earth from my experience on the beach under the stars. To have such an embodied knowing guides me to this day,

      Mmmmm – So much love to you.

      Ann StarSong

  6. My Dear Twin

    I was moved to tears hearing your words and listening to you sing. It has been a wonderful journey, sometimes a rollercoaster but with our love at the heart of our relationship and our joint commitment to using the Teachings, we have always managed to take the learning and come into greater balance. Wonder what our lives would have been like if we hadn’t found our way to Balquidder in 1996.

    Thank You for the Teaching.

    Love You Lots, PD

    • Mmmmmm – yes what a ride we have had and the Medicine has smoothed so many of the challenges we encountered on our way. I have just remembered that I sang ‘The First Time ever I saw your Face’ across the stone circle to you. It was timeless and we were truly married that day.

  7. Dearest StarSong!
    Thank you for this beautiful sharing. You and david PrairyDancer are so dear to me- and I’m so happy that you started these Beacon Fires for the purpose of connection. Thank you for your wisdom and your open heart. May we see each other soon.
    Love StarWalker

    • Dearest Sister
      Thank you for being with me on this journey- we have had so many wonderful adventures together I remember so well your and Troels Medicine Wedding – it was bright and fresh and light and deep – Mmmmmmmm. Yes to being able to have a hug in person.

  8. Dear StarSong,
    What a beautiful, magical story you have presented here. Thank you for sharing your experience with us. I met you the same time I met Rainbow Hawk and WindEagle and I remember how much I enjoyed being with you and the Dancer. When I returned to New Mexico, I was hoping to see both of you again. I will remember this image of the stones and the song of the feminine. And how that wisdom flows through the portal to us. LIke water, Spyrock Pondtender.

    • Dear Spyrock – Mmmm lovely memories yes. PD and I remember and send you our love. It has been so wonderful to take the time to look back at such a pivotal time in our lives. Hope we can meet up again some time. Deep appreciation for you taking the time to reach out. Ann StarSong


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