Embracing the Sacred Masculine

Embracing the Sacred Masculine

As I am moving into the spring moons, the dream seeds inside of me and all around are sprouting. And the sparkling curious voices inside want to know: Who am I now? Who do I want to become? What wants to emerge in my life and in life all around me?

This springtime feels like the perfect moment to break out of the cocoon that nourished me in the Winter Kiva Moons. The silence and stillness, the dreaming, the being, the remembering and sharing of stories was powerful and inspiring. Now it is time to emerge from the Earth and the cave with the warm fireplaces and to move out into action, feeding my yearnings, following my dreams.

As I am listening to these voices inside of me, I am also curious about how I want to grow myself as a man in this world. How do I want to show up? What is yearning inside of me to be strengthened and grown for more wholeness and health? What is needed in our world from men? How can I serve a bigger dream and purpose when I bring my gifts and talents? How can I as a warrior for peace be of service for myself and for all of life at the same time?

I am 46 years old. I have grown up in Switzerland. I have had the privilege to go to good schools and get support to live into my dreams of starting my own business to support others in their growth and transformation processes, to learn about Earth Wisdom with the Origin Teachings of the Delicate Lodge and I am learning every day how to live in integrity with my heart and what is important to me: to create balance and beauty, health and wholeness in life and to speak my truth. And I want everyone on this planet to be free of enslaving and limiting beliefs, images, opinions, attitudes or any other things that keep our human hearts closed.

I am in training with life, every day. I am learning, and thanks to my teacher and my people I get mirrors and challenges to learn more, to reflect on the limiting beliefs that still live inside of me – as here on the inside is the first place I want to look and create beauty before moving anywhere else.

And I keep looking into the question of how can I bring my gifts as a man into this world? After years of being trained in being a soldier and consultant, a leader and entrepreneur, in learning much about creativity, and innovation and, taking action. I realized that as a next step, I needed to learn more about the Sacred Feminine to come more to stillness and to appreciate the being qualities rather than the quick and repeated action that I was used to in my daily life.

I had a hard time to slow down, to listen rather than to speak, to wait rather than to push, to breath rather than to compensate immediately for whatever did not fit the quick fix criteria I was using for success at the time.

I was learning slowly to relax, to slow down, to listen, to meditate and let go of pushing thoughts and ideas that shouted: pick me! Pick me!

I practiced being in silence, to meditate and to come more inner peace. I was able to remember my night dreams and to learn from them on how to create more balance in my life. Step by step, I could grow a better equilibrium inside of me. And I could see how this was emanating into my surrounding fields of life and work, too. It felt strange and unknown, new, at first. But as time went on, I started realizing that the soft skills that I was practicing actually became the new hard skills that I could really rely on, and that gave me a firm foundation in moments of change and chaos.

And I remembered the words of my teacher who told me that for a man to become whole, we need to learn to yield to life. Whereas for women the challenge is to integrate the lightning-bolt, the moving into action. And while I liked the sound of the words, it took me a long time to practice yielding. And holy smoke, it sometimes still takes a very long time for me to practice and integrate the yielding, this soft opening to an idea that was not mine in the first place.

As I learned to practice my feminine qualities more and more, I also felt that I needed to approach and study the Sacred Masculine again.

What is the Sacred Masculine and how can I embrace it for more wholeness and vitality into my life? How can I walk as a warrior in this world?

I learned about the creative force, our grandfather Sun, the bringer of light and lifeforce, sparking power and vibrant light waves into our world, hungry like the fire, fierce in its own way, burning bright and un-dimmed, just fully powering and beaming lifeforce everywhere.

Moving from the stillness of the winter moons into the warmer spring days, with more sunlight, I feel like the enthusiasm is growing in me for all territories in my life. And like the grandfather Sun is shining his light earlier and earlier every morning onto the Earth, I want to get active and engage earlier every day with life, moving into action and planting the dream seeds and ensure that they can grow healthy and strong.

What is the role of a warrior today? I am exploring this question, looking for meaning, for subtle aspects of what feels like meaningful causes to stand for life, to protect life and what is dear to the heart. What do I want to stand for? What do I want to paint onto my shield that is standing outside of my home? What am I ready and willing to give my life for?

I am learning about the children’s fire. And that our responsibility as men and warriors is to protect the children’s fire, their growth and expansion. I can see that I am really good at standing around this fire with courage and fierceness to protect the growth of not only our children but any new idea or initiative that feels is life-birthing and life-growing. I feel the yearning to stand up for and insist on diversity and growth for all life-forms to foster health and wholeness. This gives meaning and integrity to me in walking my path every day.

And as the spring days and the light gets brighter, I feel the desire to grow and strengthen how I can bring myself into life as a man, walking with Great Spirit, and holding and balancing the Sacred Masculine and the Sacred Feminine inside of me, and learning every day how this dance is unfolding in new ways and movements.

I am practicing to stay ready and open-hearted, hungry and fierce to stand for life, to move with life, to protect the Children’s Fire. In my heart, I am clear what this is, and I follow my instincts to move forward, awake and aware.

And every morning and evening, I am listening to the dance of the Feminine and the Masculine inside of me and all around me, the power to be still and the lightning-bolt, the movement. Both forces are nudging me, inviting me to grow and expand, to learn more about myself and the world around me. And I am grateful for the Grandfather Sun rising every morning and his light reaching and touching the Grandmother Earth beautifully and softly.

DawnJaguar is a learner in the Delicate Lodge Teachings and currently in Keepership training with his teacher WhiteEagle Woman.

He is teaching the Medicine Wheels and protocols for healthy and strong circle businesses in the working world to support leaders, teams, entire companies and communities to move from pyramids to circles where every voice matters.

He has also integrated the Council Guide Training as a mindfulness and wholeness training into the curriculum of the Business school of the KaosPilots in Bern, Switzerland and Cape Town, South Africa. He is also guiding people on their learning journey with the Council Guide Training in the Swiss Alps.

With a team of hungry learners he is practicing being a circle business with the new consulting business and business school of “7 Generations” and their new 4 year training program “Guardians of Transformation”.

He lives with his wife and their black cat Bagheera on the wild side of Bern’s countryside in Switzerland and more and more on the land of StarDance in New Mexico, USA.

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Sacred Masculine:
Evolution Like the Lightningbolt

Sacred Masculine:
Evolution Like the Lightningbolt

Storm clouds are gathering and it’s nearly dark. It’s been raining off-and-on all evening, but we’re happy. I’m with a band of brothers out on the river, paddling together in a large canoe. Each fortnight we meet as a men’s group to explore, inquire and share stories. Tonight we’ve paddled down to a beach, shared food and sat together around a fire. Each man has shared the truth of his heart – his challenges, insights, and beauty. Now we’re singing as we oar ourselves back upstream.

Lightning flashes like a strobe and illuminates the water, the trees and the man in front of me. Thunder rolls around the hills. We’re soaked to the skin but laughing like lunatics now, aroused by this sudden elemental shock. I remember that of the two places my mother told me never to be during a thunderstorm this is one. (The other’s a golf course.) But I feel fully alive, awake to the dynamic universe and reveling in the moment.

Lightning symbolizes the masculine, SSkuan, the urge to do, to create, to move things into manifestation. All things are born of the feminine: all things come from the quantum field, the void, all potential. The void is sacred: the void is Wakan. The lightning emerges from the void; it comes out of the darkness and returns to the darkness. Like all things in the world of form, it comes from the formless. We, humans, are born of the formless and to the formless, we return.

I had already been in this men’s group for several years, and we have journeyed together for many more since. Our rules of confidentiality forbid me to reveal what we do, on pain of horrible and unusual punishment. But if I was allowed to, this is what I’d say: the heyohka is alive and well in this group!  It comes in flights of outrageous humour for which no subject is taboo. On the other hand, there is a deep respect for each other’s personal process: we listen and reflect in ways that enable insight and wisdom to emerge. But one of the things I love most about this group is our inquiry into a range of subjects – not just beer and bikes but for example sexuality, male privilege and … masculinity.

We may not agree what the feminine and masculine principles are. For me the feminine is receptive, all potential, being: the masculine is activation, movement, and change, becoming. You can’t have one without the other – at least not in this realm. You can’t have yin without yang. The Creatress Mother and Creator Father are One, and never the twain shall be sundered. Their dance is cosmic and erotic in the biggest sense of that word. It is the spiraling of distant galaxies and the pulsing of life-blood in our veins. Our Universe is permeated with love. The Sun loves the Earth: you can see it when his rays adorn the grass with liquid pearls of light. 

The Medicine Wheel shows us that all things are related. It is a circle, a symbol of the Infinite and of wholeness, and when we think in a circular way we think holistically. It is the great mirror in which all Creation is reflected. It is the zero from which all numbers are born: one – Sun; two – Earth…. This is why the zero is sacred; the zero is Wakan. Wakan is not nothing. She is everything – in potential. 

The lightningbolt, SSkuan, dances with this potential. He is the life-force that animates, moves and changes. And out of this dance of Creatress and Creator, ten thousand forms are born. But Creation did not happen just once, a long time ago. It’s happening now, in every cell of our being. It dances within the ten thousand things of form. In our world everything is in flux, continuously moving and changing. Yet the formless is within form. This is the Mystery of being and becoming, and the paradox that we are both whole and complete yet also becoming so.

My life has been a quest into the Mystery. As a small child, I had many questions: I wondered what life was all about and what I was doing here. I wanted to understand the clouds and whatever propelled them across my bedroom window. I wanted to know what the birds were singing about. But when I went to school we didn’t talk about any of that. Instead, I was taught that the universe was solid matter and that things were just things. I was told that life was about ‘getting’: getting stuff, getting a girlfriend and getting good exam results. Nobody talked about being. Nobody talked about ‘spirit’ – except the kind that comes in a bottle.

Looking back at this time I see that we were doing the best we could but we weren’t in relationship with the whole circle. We were doing the profane masculine, and it didn’t make me happy. 

Sensitivity is a power: insensitivity is a loss. Many of our fathers and grandfathers lost it in the wars, industry or at school. As a result of trauma, they couldn’t be fully present for their sons and daughters, and trauma begat trauma. My own trauma gathered pace in my teenage years when I decided it would be cool to hide sensitivity under a cloak and do the dance of distortions. 

Then one day I picked up a book called ‘Teach Yourself Yoga’, and it suggested that I look at a candle and think of nothing for five minutes. I was shocked to find I couldn’t manage five split-seconds without thinking.

So I tried going on a meditation retreat. They told us to sit down and be with the breath. There was no talking, and I was BORED. I sat for so long that my back ached. I thought every possible thought I’d ever had. But after several days my thinking mind got so completely bored it gave up. I went outside in one of the breaks and noticed something unusual: the trees were alive. I wasn’t thinking anymore: I was sensing. I was sensing the magical aliveness of all things – trees, clouds, grass. I was aware that everything was filled with numinous innocence, and I was one with it. I had opened the doorway to the Great Mystery. I had rediscovered the sacred. 

On my subsequent journey, I visited various Mystery schools, and in one of them, someone showed me a Wheel. ‘You are here’, he said. ‘With earth, air, fire and water around you. You’ve come here to learn from them.’ Something clicked, and I have been drawn to Earth Medicine ever since, partly because it engages my whole self – mind, body, emotion and spirit – and my relationship with the alive Universe. It helps me overcome ‘dead matter thinking’ and the illusion that ‘I’ am separate.

I studied with various Medicine teachers such as Beautiful Painted Arrow before finding my way to the Delicate Lodge. Fasting is a powerful way to learn, and Beautiful Painted Arrow guided us in ceremonies like the Drum Dance that involve dancing for several days without food and water. I believe that the deep states of consciousness we reach in Medicine ceremonies like this push the edge of the collective consciousness. They are supporting the human evolution that is so urgently called for.

Then I met WindEagle and RainbowHawk. Straight away I felt moved by Medicine teachers who expressed both beauty and power, and the corn they planted in me began to sprout. It has since grown into a strong plant and begun to nourish others. Growing it has been my journey of heart, and I find myself looking for fertile ground in which to plant seeds myself. 

I recall many memories of the sacred masculine from this journey, but one, in particular, is from my first visit to Denmark. A group of us were walking by the shore of the sea. We were in single file, keeping an arms-length between us and maintaining the same rhythm. We mindfully placed our feet on the sacred ground: each footstep was a prayer. RainbowHawk said afterward that he’d watched our shadows moving across the Earth as if they were the fletches of an arrow. It was an example of the tribal heart: we were individuals within togetherness.

Like that time with my brothers on the river, we were expressing the sacred masculine through our uniqueness within collective togetherness; we were deeply present and in relationship with all Life, and we were grounded in physicality and rhythm as our feet trod the ground or the blades of our paddles stroked the water past. We were doing the primal dance of being and becoming. 

 But how can we bring understanding of the dance of feminine and masculine into daily life? How can we practice awareness of this dance? What practices will enable us to move our becoming into the world from the stillness of being?

First, we can notice the space between thoughts, the space in which thought occurs. Meditation, stillness, deep listening, contemplation and other practices of the south-east give us spaciousness in which to expand awareness. In this expanded state we see that we are more, much more, than the stream of brain-thought. Brain-thought may have dominated our sense of identity but now there is gnosis – direct knowing – that we are the ground, the consciousness in which thought occurs: we are the field, and all potential is within us. 

Allowing and noticing the gap between thought also enables us to be more conscious about our choice of thought. In other words by being more conscious of being – the silence within – we become more conscious of the becoming – thought – and of the effect it is creating. Our thoughts are like beats on the sundance drum: without the drumskin, the drumstick could make no beats: without silence there could be no sound; and without the void, our actions are out of harmony with the circle of life. Silence gives us awareness of how we are affecting the field. Presence makes us conscious of what we emanate into the vastness of consciousness.

Without morning practice our action can be driven by ego. Through silence, we are aware of our effect on the field of consciousness, and when our action emerges from stillness we walk the way of the sacred masculine. This is how we paddle our boat on the river. 

Second, we can use this inner spaciousness – the feminine principle – to receive other people. We can do this in conversation by fully listening rather than thinking about what we have to say. If we work with clients – for example as coach, doctor or Medicine guide – we can allow their energy to come into us. This means being with not-knowing and trusting the unknown rather than hiding in our role, but it enables us to introspect and intuit a response. Then our intervention emerges from the depths and we can follow their feedback. Sessions with clients thus become communion with the Divine, an Aikido of harmony with the Tao and as much of a dance as any waltz, foxtrot or Fandango.

Thirdly we can yield to the dreaming of the Universe. For example, as I compose this I am periodically moving into stillness to receive the Universe’s ideas of what to say next. My job is then to translate this dreaming into coherent verbiage so that the Universe can express her / himself with a DiamondLight flavour. Almost any act of creativity is a dance between emptiness and fullness. Dreaming is the conceptive side of creativity in which we allow ourselves to be fertilized by the Universe. We then give birth to the new life through expression.

The way we humans are impacting our Mother Planet and her other offspring is clearly out of balance. It is the result of how we have been dreaming: we need to change the dream. But how? By balancing the being and becoming within ourselves and coming into conscious relationship with Life. When we yield to the dream of the Universe we can change the dream. We can – as RainbowHawk once put it – be bold and take the next step of evolution. 

Dreaming with the universe is like steering a boat on a river, using the current but keeping a hand on the tiller. Which brings me back to that canoe full of men on the River Dart. Inspired by the lightning and rolling thunder we pulled lustily for the shore. When we finally reached the landing stage the rain turned to hail and we were pelted with hailstones that settled an inch-thick. Everyone agreed it had been a memorable evening. 

The masculine includes logic and algorithm, but we need to understand that Life is not a linear process. Evolution moves not in a straight line but in a zigzag – like the Lightningbolt.

Carlos Philip Glover – Medicine name DiamondLight – lives within the greenery of scenery and heaven of Devon, England. He journeyed with various Medicine teachers in the 1980s and ‘90s before training with WindEagle, RainbowHawk and WhiteEagle.

He has dedicated much of his life to “mending the sacred hoop” – especially the relationship between humans and the rest of Creation – initially as an environmentalist and later by breathing Medicine into the world.

He is currently offering the Earth Warrior Training, an eight-month journey that combines the ancient lineage of Earth Wisdom with the cutting edge psychology of Process Oriented Psychology. He is co-leading this with his wife, JadeDreamer.

See https://www.carlosphilipglover.com/earth-warrior-training/

He has been offering vision quests since the early 1990s and will be guiding the next one together with JadeDreamer in August.

He is also calling people in for the Drum Dance in Scotland, a three-day dry-fasting ceremony passed on to him by BeautifulPaintedArrow, and is helping to gather people for the next Evocative Leadership Mastery which starts in Spain in November. 

He also wrote “A Journey to the Centre of Your Self’ which is awaiting publication and is a participant in Extinction Rebellion. 

Telephone:  0044 7546 547 133

Embody the Beauty of my Designs in your Life

Embody the Beauty of my Designs in your Life

I was given this orchid plant in April when I retired as Chair of Fathers Network Scotland.  I thought it had died but I have nurtured it over the last few months and even given it a weekly dose of Restore which awakens the natural intelligence of soil bacteria.  i have watched with joy as it recently began to bud and this morning I came into the lounge to see the buds fully opened. Wow!

Recently FireHawk and I have been playing with new Medicine Wheels for our work at the Center for Timeless Earth Wisdom and one offer what we call commands from Mother Earth for our personal development.  As I looked at the orchid today the command ‘Embody the Beauty of my Designs in your Life’ was really present for me.   I see the beauty of the Orchid, her symmetry and the vibrancy & gentleness of the colours.  There is also s deep sense of benevolence as the plant shares her glory with no ego, not have too, just an unbridled passion to be alive.

I just felt happy to be in the presence of the very essence of giving fully of oneself to life and felt this command was one I could easily sing up too Mmmmmm

KIVA DREAMING TIME – An Invitation to Explore

KIVA DREAMING TIME – An Invitation to Explore

In the Origin Teachings of the Delicate Lodge tradition, the 4 moons from November to February are called Kiva Moons. This is a time for us to dream awake the seeds that we wish to plant in our life’s garden come the Spring. To honor this season, we want to invite you to join us in dreaming about what Earth is asking of us now.

But first, we want to thank you for subscribing to Beacon Fires, a Journal of stories from the world of the Origin Teachings of the Delicate Lodge. It has been a remarkable journey for us to co-create Beacon Fires and we deeply appreciate each of our Medicine Women who contributed to our first basket of stories ‘Calling the Sacred Feminine‘. 

As we enter the four Kiva Dreaming Moons, we wanted to pause and reflect on our Beacon Fires experience and to this end, we have created the three videos below. The first one celebrates  personal learning that we have gained from the Beacon Fires journey so far. The second brings forward the Sacred Purpose of Beacon Fires Journal as one clear step on our path of sharing, applying and evolving the Origin Teachings for the generations that are coming after us. In the last video, we wished to acknowledge the opening that we sense about this Kiva time and to invite you to journey with us for the next four moons in a shared sacred community space of Dreaming in the Digital Realm.  

Click on the buttons below to view the videos.

As subscribers, we  invite you to meet with us online in January, February, and early March to explore our individual and collective dreams for this time in our lives and for the world. These calls will be designed to “hear all our voices” and to foster us telling each other about our dreams in small groups.

In order to participate, you need to register to receive access to the call.  Click on your preferred call(s) below to register. Upon registering, we will send you the information about the call and a couple of things to reflect about before we come together online.

You can register for one, two or all three calls by clicking the buttons below – you must complete each registration separately to gain access to the calls.

Please enter your dreams, questions, ideas, and inspirations
about this year’s Kiva Dreaming Time below.

Here are some questions to stimulate your writing…

What is the dream that is calling you now?

What dream have you held in exile?

What dream of yours do you want to give to someone you love?

What dream, if you manifested it, would set you free?

Stop and Be in the Beauty – Reconnecting to the Sacred Feminine

Stop and Be in the Beauty – Reconnecting to the Sacred Feminine

The Sacred Feminine comes as a gentle touch upon our shoulder inviting us to stop and simply be in the magic of the present moment. She holds us as we transition from the night dreams to the day dreams creating space for us to be in the yearning, the desire to learn and grow. She fills us with love and awe as we wander the woods connecting to our sisters and brothers.  She reminds us to be aware of their Beauty everywhere; moss clinging to tree-trunks, the play of light and shadow on leaves, buzzing honey bees drinking from the flowers, stones revealing healing patterns.  We are with all of them, our senses expanded in intimate connection, appreciating each one and open to receive information.

Then from Her depths there is a whisper, ‘Come. It is time.”

Following that call one day, I found myself sitting on the towpath next to a swan’s nest, watching as a cygnet pecked its way from the darkness of the egg to the light of this world. A miracle of the dance of the NotTwo. What an honour to be invited to witness such an intimate moment. To share in the joy of another Spirit Being coming into form.

At the time I didn’t fully appreciate what I was experiencing. I had forgotten the truth – that all things are born out of the Sacred Feminine and that it is the dance of the Sacred Feminine and the Sacred Masculine, that creates everything. That it begins with the Sacred Feminine; the silence of the Mystery in which anything is possible and nothing has yet come into form. Until that moment when the urge to create becomes an imperative and the Sacred Masculine, the Light, the Sound, bursts forth from the Void and something is formed.

Indeed I spent many years denying this understanding. Preferring to consider myself as a ‘human’ rather than being a female. Not appreciating my unique gifts as a woman nor recognizing which aspects of me were from the Sacred Feminine and which were from the Sacred Masculine.  Rebelling against the inequalities I experienced as a woman in the workplace and elsewhere. Better to ignore the subtleties of this dance, than to be treated with disdain because I was female.

It was the Origin Teachings of the Delicate Lodge that finally brought me home to Wholeness. Learning that the Women hold the centre and the Men guard the perimeter. Remembering how both reside in me. Spending time in the darkness and the silence, Being.  Then manifesting through the energy of the Sacred Masculine. It required a deep listening and a practice of getting out of the way, anything that was stopping me from living into my Sacred Dream.

In that remembering, I recognised that the Mother Earth and all her children have always been my first love. The Teachings deepened that love, a love of the utter magic of this world.  They fueled a curiosity to explore, to be in intimate relationship with Life. The natural world is a portal for me into the Mystery, to the Sacred Feminine. And my expression of that relationship found its voice through Photography. Oftentimes when I am taking photographs I feel like I am falling into whatever it is I am seeing and literally becoming One with. I experience the everchanging moment, the dance of all the elements, seen and unseen, that come together to create that unique moment; a moment that will never be repeated.

Sometimes I don’t even fully ‘see’ everything that is before me and it is not until I take the time later to look at the image on my computer that I see what was hidden; I see the energy that was tapping on my shoulder and saying, “Look, look this way. See me”. The invitation from the Other to meet them in their Essence, an Essence born of their StarSeed potential, that first yearning in the darkness of No Thing. It truly is a journey to perceive in a different way. How the opportunity to listen for that voice from the Sacred Feminine, to let her grow inside and to hear that whisper (sometimes it’s even a shout or a clamour of multiple voices) from the stone, or the tree, the swan, or the water, saying “See me, I’m here, over here. Come and say hello. Be with me a while.” It is an opportunity to come into deep relationship with the animals, and the plants, the sky nation and the water, the ThunderBeings and the ants; all Life.

My invitation this day to you is to stop and watch the video below. Simply immerse yourself in the Sacred Feminine.  Then let your senses open to my Essence Reflections that come through Her.

Accalia is a Council Guide, a Photographer, a Swan Rescuer and, at heart she is a Nomad

Having experienced the power of the Origin Teachings of the Delicate Lodge in her own life about ten years ago she stepped forward as a Guide to support WhiteEagle Woman on her Medicine training programmes. In following the words of the Chiefs to ‘Breathe these teachings into the world. It is time and maybe some good will come of this“, she has shared this Ancient Wisdom across Europe and the US.

Her passion is photography – a creative expression of her relationship with Mother Life and this world in which we live. She explores the interweaving of essence-energies that forge each moment and captures this as a moment of magic. Her images tell stories of the dance between the seen and the unseen and her deepest desire is that these ‘moments’ help people reconnect to their thread in this weave. 

When back home in England, Accalia is involved with the charity Swan Support and spends many hours picking up injured swans and transporting them to the treatment centre. She has developed a very intimate relationship with the Swan Nation as evidenced by some of her imagery.

Accalia moves around the planet, being curious about the world and its people, adventures that often lead to the delight of striking up conversations with people to learn more of who they are.